Life with Margaret

If I had been her father, I probably wouldn't be able to take care of myself at an old age let alone a daughter suffering from PTSD.  If I had been her doctor, I would recommend that she see go through treatments for the PTSD such as cognitive behavioral therapy or medicine.  If I had been her brother, I would probably make sure that she is with people she can communicate with like other veterans from the war.  Margaret probably feels more isolated than she already was.  She couldn't perform tasks properly and was a burden for others.  I would probably live in an institution since I don't want to be a burden to my family.

Free of Stress

If I didn't need to cope with the high expectations set by my family and friends, I would get a lot more sleep on weekdays!  I am always pressured to get straight A's and attain a career in a medical profession.  I would probably try to become a game designer, novelist or try to enter the artistic world.

The Scarved Bringer of Justice

A male student goes through the city upholding his own sense of justice.  He calls himself the Scarfshade after his dark personality and his scarf around his neck.  Scarfshade is insensitive and is unfeeling giving him numbness to pain, invisibility, and a twisted personality.

In the darkness of the night, a young boy walked alone in the city streets.  He managed to see two men dumping bags into a park lake.  The boy turned into Scarfshade, turned invisible and crept up behind the two men.  He punched the shortest man onto the ground, but the other man was quick.  The taller man pulled out a dagger and stabbed Scarfshade in the chest.  The wound did not affect Scarfshade who then punched the man down and took the knife from the man.  Scarfshade stabbed the man's hands before throwing both of the men into the lake.  The police arrived on the scene due to a call of a disturbance and entered the park to find the injured men gasping for air.  The convicts were arrested for littering and Scarfshade disappeared back into the darkness.

Purpose of Living

The ancient question that has rattled the minds of philosophers since the concept of though had been whether life had a purpose.  Why do we live?  What is the meaning in life?  As a recluse and unsociable individual who has always seen life through a biased perspective, I have pondered this question in times of boring car trips, lying in a field, or waiting for a responsible adult to pick me up from school.  It's obviously a nebulous question designed to analyze the ideals and morals of various individuals; that's the very point.  Each person answers this question independently and with different answers.  Although this is the question's purpose, many will answer with "I don't know".  This requires a rephrasing of question to What do you live for?  I've seen various lives and how people live them, some who follow a purpose, clinging onto something they believe is purpose, or are desperately searching for a reason to continue living.
"What does this have to do with anything?" you may ask.  As a person who lives watching others and is taught by old pages from books passed down generations, I see a trend if you may call it.  The answer to the nebulous question that I had come up with was vague in and of itself.  For what reason do I live?  I live to change.  The universal concept of life is that life is constantly changing and moving forward.  Change is integral in the development of the human race whether it is a good change or bad.  We live to change ourselves to become something better than ourselves and change the lives of others.  I have, since I was born into the modern world, always been living for the sake and desires of peers and others.  As time slips by, I became aware of my own lost existence as a result of this adherence to the wishes of others.  I needed to change myself.  Whether I could change into a citizen accepted by society or a man beaten by society's regulations and ideals was all dependent on my own change and what kind of change of character I was searching for.  I live for others; I always have and will continue to do so.  I want to live to heal others, support others, and enjoy myself along the path.  I believe that with the limited time we all have we should change ourselves to suit the needs of others and fill that empty gap within ourselves.  I want to do many things and travel many different paths of life.  I want to be a medical professional.  I want to become an inspiration for someone.  I want to ensure that the generations to come will know of some contribution I had made in this world before I had departed from the physical world.  Although I won't be able to fill out my to do list completely, I hope others will benefit from my own changes because as I attempt to do this, I will enjoy every minute of it.

Mistakes down The Road

As we continue down our paths through life, we all stumble and fall because of our own shortcomings and mistakes.  Unfortunate events in which we feel like the world itself is against us is uncommon and we have all experienced this very feeling deep down.  There have been many unfortunate events that I can recall, but I shall only describe one.  When I was young, I used to vent out my stress by throwing shoes at a large net on the field held up by large poles.  The net was designed to catch high flying balls, but it served as a net to catch shoes and bounce shoes.  My friends and I tried our best to get our shoes over the net, and I won.  The reward was losing my shoes on a neighboring house roof outside of the campus.  So, I went throughout the school day with only one shoe.  I actually took someone else's shoe to compensate.  When I look back on the experience, I shouldn't have participated in such an activity at all.  I probably would have just watched others or done something else.

The Theory of Unhappiness

Things that make me Happy
Anime
Video Games
Cross Country Running

Things that make me Unhappy
Finishing homework and studying late
Getting taunted about college rejections and acceptances
Getting constantly reminded of my faults and mistakes

I could try to ignore insults and bad memories as I usually do.  Finishing homework early is pretty difficult because I have track and field training which causes me to begin studying late.  If I keep moving forward and following my own path, I can continue to live my life content.

Regretful Experience

I have had many various experiences that I consider regretful.  If I had to choose one in particular event, it would be in elementary school.  I learned a few words from my friends at lunch and during class we began saying various phrases.  The class activity was a worksheet which I had finished early, but I kept saying things that were on my mind until I had said the new words I had learned from my friends.  The room went quiet and it dawned on me that I had said the words aloud to the class.  Only when I was called into the principal's office did I know what they meant.  To this day, I continue to think back on that time.  I had never cried in front of the class before until that day and it was a lesson for me.  I was ignorant and didn't know much of anything that hadn't been written down in textbooks and required school literature.  After that experience, I believed that it would be much better keeping my mouth shut in class.